This afternoon, I caught up on some blog reading. One young woman had not posted on her blog in a while, and it made me happy to see a new post. She began by saying she was not going to apologize for not posting in over a month. Life had been full for her lately, and that is nothing for which to be sorry. I will take a cue from her and NOT apologize for neglecting my blog in over a month, too! 😊
Even though I’m not going to apologize for my silence here, I would like to explain why I haven’t written lately. …. Yes, I would like to explain it … if I honestly knew why! I’ve been mulling it over off and on all day. Am I bored with the topics about which I typically write? Do I have writer’s block? Have I simply been too busy?
Topics about which I write on this blog…that would primarily be outfit posts, with occassional thrifting posts and food posts. Taking photos of myself for outfit posts has lost its appeal. It’s not quick or easy to take your own outfit photos. My husband is willing to take pictures of my Sunday outfits, but I haven’t been very good about allowing enough time to do that before we leave for church. And then there’s the problem of feeling like a big fat blob no matter what I wear. Sure, I’d love to hop on the “body positivity” bandwagon, and sometimes I actually do, but not at the moment. Right now, I’d love to shed a few inches off my lumpy belly, but am finding that increasingly difficult to accomplish. So, outfit posts…I’m feeling kind of “meh” about them. Not bored, just not happy with how I look.
Thrifting is something I seriously doubt I’ll ever get bored with doing or writing about! Yard sale season is in full swing in our area, and I’ve been scouting out bargains almost every weekend with my daughter. Last weekend, we hit up some community sales, and both of us took home good hauls! We took pictures of our finds, too. I haven’t yet taken the time to gather the photos together and create a post. Since last weekend, I’ve been busy with cleaning windows, washing curtains, and a million other things.
I’ll admit to being bored with food. My body hurts in new ways now, and it tires me out faster than ever. By the time evening rolls around, I could care less about what I’m eating. It’s enough work to prepare a decent supper for my husband; making a seperate meal for me is too daunting a task, so I usually just pick around his food for what my stomach can handle. And then I snack in the evening because green beans and plain mashed potatoes simply aren’t satisfying. Yes, I really need to do something about this. Not only is it not satisfying, it’s also not well balanced or healthy. My daughter has inspired me to make some changes in my diet. Perhaps that warrants a blog post of its own.
I do not believe that I have writer’s block. After all, when I do sit down to write, the words usually flow right along. And I often find myself thinking as I go about my days, “that would make a great blog topic!” But I don’t stop what I’m doing and go write about that topic immediately, and by the time I do, my brain is too tired to string words together coherantly anymore. Perhaps the trouble is that I don’t write early enough in the day. But that’s when I need to do things like chores, laundry, baking, cleaning, a bit of yoga, grocery shopping, eBay sales….
There is a good chance I’ve been too busy to blog, but it’s more likely that I’ve been feeling overwhelmed lately and blogging is the easiest thing to put off. After all, it’s not a job; it’s not a necessity. It’s a creative outlet, but it’s not something I’m required to do.
So…what am I going to do about this lack of regular blog posts? Set up a writing schedule so I can feel like a failure when I don’t meet it? Quit the blog altogether? Neither! My solution is to embrace the unpredictability! I’ll surprise you (and myself!) with a post every now and then, out of the clear blue sky, with no rhyme or reason, and just simply write about whatever’s banging around in my menopausal brain whenever the heck I get inspired. Deal?
(Here’s a recent picture I took of Etta Pooka. It has nothing to do with anything I’ve written about in this post. It’s just a funny pic I shared with my weight management group for Weigh-in Wednesday.)